To my little Fluffs,
I’m sorry that I wasn’t there today to scratch you and love you and tell you that everything would be okay. I’m sorry that you were so sick and diseased and in so much pain. I’m sorry that your body was shutting down and you could no longer function on your own.
I love you so much, I think you know that. You and I were the best of friends- we swapped secrets and shared a room, cuddled at night and went on walks together. You loved to go to the preserve around the corner from our house and bark at the ducks and find dead things to sniff. You loved to hop into flower pots and pretend that they were your own personal throne. You loved dressing up in clothes and wearing sweaters in the winter- you were quite the fashion dog and had many outfits to parade around in.
You loved to be the center of attention and loved spending time with the family. You loved to bite and eat your favorite little brown toy- and actually ripped an arm off on accident. Mom sewed it back on for you.
You loved to take rides in the car and I think your favorite trip was to Monterey Bay to see Gilroy the Great White. You loved cheese and all types of meat but hated popcorn and tomatoes (me too!).
I am sad that you won’t be there the next time I come home. You won’t hide under the bed waiting for me, and you won’t lick my feet when I get out of the shower. You won’t bark at the front door or the mail man or the squirrels in the backyard.
I’m going to miss you a lot. I’m going to miss your soft fur and your silly little prance and that happy face of yours. I’m going to miss your floppy ears and your bouncy tail and your one white paw. The house will be a little more quiet without you.
I’m grateful that mom was able to make the decision and was brave enough to get you the medical help that you needed. I hope now you can be with your brother Zeus and play to your little heart’s content.
Thank you for being around when I needed you, for being a constant source of comfort and companionship. I still find your little doggy hairs on my clothes sometimes and I love that even now you are still with me.
Until we meet again-