I know I posted this on other media sites so this probably isn’t news to everyone.
We are expecting baby #4 in June.
We are so excited. Nervous. Really nervous, but excited.
Feels sort of crazy to be pregnant again, I feel like I just did this… we are just finishing the first trimester and I’m feeling mostly goodish. I’m really tired, and I have to keep food on my stomach. My OB is so wonderful, she has given me ultrasounds at every visit just for reassurance. So far everything looks good, heartbeat is nice and steady. One baby..arms and legs and feet and stuff.
The ultrasound tech asked me what if this was my first baby… and no, it’s my fourth. My oldest is five. Then I have to sort of explain why I’m getting extra ultrasounds and why this pregnancy is so close to my last. I got through it without crying though and that was a big milestone for me! Then I cried just a few tears when I heard the heartbeat… because it just makes it so much more real. We are so blessed.
We hope this will be a very normal and uneventful pregnancy. I will have more in depth ultrasounds and a special fetal echo done on the baby’s heart some time in the second trimester. Maxwell’s heart problems were not genetic, they were by chance and the odds of us having another heart baby are small. We do know I will deliver around 38 weeks… since this c-section is so close to my last, the hope is that I don’t go into labor at all by myself. No labor = good.
We know this baby will be special and will help heal our hearts a little bit- but no baby will replace Maxwell. He is our third child, just as important as our others… I just have to wait a little longer to hold him again. We are taught
“The body will come forth as it is laid to rest, for there is no growth or development in the grave. As it is laid down, so will it arise, and the changes to perfection will come by the law of restitution. But the spirit will continue to expand and develop, and the body, after the resurrection, will develop to the full stature of man.”
What a privilege to be a mother, we are so thankful we get to do this all over again.