Had my pre-op this morning and stuff got real, real fast We went over the surgery instructions and got my bracelet and took my blood and it seems so crazy that it’s time to deliver. In 24 hours we will have a new fresh froggy baby! As I sit here and type this, he is rolling all over the place- these are my last moments of inside movements and I’m enjoying them slash also ready for him to get out of me. He is sitting higher than my other babies, and it makes breathing hard and bending hard. Linc was so low he was WAY more comfortable. Every baby is so different.
I was on my way back to my mom’s to pick up the kids and bring them home for naps and I realized this is my last day with two kids. Ever. Lincoln will only be the baby a little bit longer and of course I started getting teary- I feel like he was JUST born! I’m trying to tidy the house and pack my bag and do all the last minute things that are on my list but really all I want to do is hold my sleeping toddler and play chutes and ladders with my girl. We are dropping off the kids at my parents’ tomorrow on our way to the hospital and my heart already aches to leave them.
I appreciate my time in Sacramento with Isabelle so much more now. It was like a vacation from regular life where we just spent scads of time together. So thankful for that, she is such a sweetie pie. I’m a little nervous about this transition for Lincoln. He’s my boy. Still such a baby.
Tomorrow will be one of my most important and special days, and the anticipation is killing me. I can’t wait to see what he looks like (and what we end up naming him…) and see my children hold him and meet him. I’m excited to see my husband interact with the tiny being he helped create. I feel closer to heaven during this time than any other time in my life. I’m so lucky.